Remorse

I sat by the corner of my bed
With the ache in my heart
For the pain I had given.
I use to be morning light
He told me once.
I use to be fresh breeze
He told me twice.
And I use to be his asset
He told me always.
But i lead him for funeral.
The permanence of pain will never evaporate
The permanece of guilt will be eternel.
Life is evasive for what i ask
conflict between self denial or betrayal.
It leaves me weak
The funeral will be remainder
of righteous conflict.
Its memories will be resuscitated
Till the pain evanesence forever

infidelity

How far is infidelity be tolerated?or can it be really be tolerated.Well when im saying inifidelity it doesnt really mean its dictionary terms.But i think when you break somebody's trust having sex is the last act to do to be totally be hated for.Well coming back to the question,i guess it would depend from person to person.But the consequences seems too be similar with all.Constant fear and insecurity are the direct consequenses.Also there is a dilemma that what made you to do it,why couldnt you stop it.And when the situation becomes very difficlut to handle or some time its out of control,its too late.All or the sudden life become so evasive.You can feel things being eroded and strings breaking.The pain which arises makes every ache tolerable.You want to resuscitate life and make everything as normal as you can which can reduce the pain if not totally eradicate it.To make it worst you feel guilty.The whole collectin- pain,remorse,embaresment and fear is enough to make anybody cry out loud.When it is limited to yourself,you have a constant believe that one day evrything will be fine but the moment things are out of control-life changes in a microsecond.When the betrayal it limited ,you always have a choice of choosing one of the two,or three or more in a worst case.But once the cat is out of the bag,nothing is left.There are eyes looking deep in you soul asking why???It seems even strangers are raising voice.
Is the sin so huge that it can take anybody's life?The love still exists.All that happened was a space was created in a week perplexed heart.Obviously if the grotesque consequence was known,then it wouldnt have happened.
The self believe that you can control the epidemic makes it worse,also the weakness in confronting the broken hearts stops you for any remediation.